Tuesday, January 19, 2016

Music Dying

"...It's hard to tell the night time from the day.
You're losin' all your highs and lows
Ain't it funny how the feeling goes away?"

I was moved last week when Bowie died, a genius was taken from us too early. But I cried today. I do not like feeling feelings. I always preferred to numb them. I was good at that, and I miss it. When I was a practicing alcoholic living alone in Nags Head, NC in the 80's sometimes I would listen to the Eagle's, "Desperado" alone late at night. Numb or not, tears would roll down my face and I lit another cigarette and opened another Miller Lite, and another, and another.
   
The living room of my cottage in Nags Head, sometime in the early 1980's I reckon.
When those who wrote the soundtracks of our lives die, it can feel like a part of us dies too. That's how it feels to me (feelings again). I am grateful that there was a Glenn Frey and that he wrote such wonderful, incredible songs. But to be honest (and genuine), I am not feeling very fucking grateful right now.

I've never tried to put YouTube videos in the blog before. There are two links below that go to good versions of those songs. Thanks, Glenn...



Love. Just. Love.

6 comments:

  1. A we practise being real and vurnerable humans, I believe that a moment of reflection and sadness does express your gratitude for this man's impact in your life. Graditude, like colors, can be expressed in many hues. Love to you, Bruce.

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  2. Thank you, Cheryl... Love back to you as well!

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  3. Feelings! I'm so glad you have them and share them. I know you write these blogs for yourself and to remind you to practice gratitude every day. But they, the blogs, also help those of us who are not as articulate or as able to share as you are.

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  4. JM and I just finished watching the three-hour and seven-minute long The History of the Eagles. (We watched it in two sittings). When you can, take a gander. And don't watch the first one unless and until you will watch the second shortly thereafter. Much love from Up and Over.

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  5. Thank you, Chris! It makes me happy that my words connect with people sometimes!

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